Embrace the Chaos
A wise human once gave me advice
“Embrace the chaos.”
A novel concept I long wish I could indulge in. If only it was as easy as just letting it be. If only I could flash the memories of being too loud and the consequences that followed. If only I could pick and choose the pieces of me that I heal from and that no longer stand in my way.
Maybe if I wasn't born into chaos, forged in fire, and sent off to war (more chaos), only to come home and sew my own for a while.
A novel concept, I long wish to feel. One step in positive direction is all I can do. Learning the parts of me to unlearn a beautifully dark process.
These were never written as a “take pity on me,” more something for someone to connect with if they felt alone, I was just willing to put thought to words and share. I don't wish for the burden to be lighter, I only seek to learn the power within me to forge the resolve to appear in the world how I wish, better.